Day 6 in SF.

If you've spent time with me, or spent time just talking to me, you find out that I am one of the most fickle, indecisive people you will ever meet. I want one thing, then I want the other. I don't have one thing, I want it. Thats why I love being up and about, it distracts me from all the contemplative shit that goes on in my mind..

My uncle took my cousin and I to go look at colleges today. Colleges that I probably won't get into, but then again there's no harm in trying (= SFstate's actually pretty nice, I've wanted to go live in San Francisco my entire life. I've had my life set on moving out here for some odd reason. It doesn't make sense because 1. Where exactly will I live? 2. The weather kills me. 3. I ALWAYS get sick out here, or anywhere in general -_- and 4. It's getting more expensive and congested every day. Then we visited this Catholic school I didn't care for, San Fran University? And we headed to Berkley. Oh my FUCK it's beautiful there. The people dress cutely. They hold wonderful protests and what not. What more can I ask for? My sister told me not to go, that it'd only get my hopes up and what not. But getting your hopes up isn't so bad.. I mean you have to get beat down to appreciate all the wonderful, and unexpected things that happen to you right? KAY and the city of Berkley. Holy jizz. I think I fell in love because they have all these hippy stands and cultural stores everywhere. AND A SANDWICH PLACE THAT HANGS CASSETTE TAPES EVERYWHERE. hahaha.

I'm sorry for missing your birthday today, bubs. You're confusing. You're mad at me for missing your birthday, then your not. You're exactly like me I don't know when your just fucking around or not -___- hahaha. I actually do feel bad. I really don't know why. It's not like were really that close as we were anymore. But I still love and care about you. I hope you have a great ass 18th. Shit eighteen.. haha, and you're only 18 once.