I'm

a sucker for gay movies -_- Like I hate them with a passion. Cuz I'm really not a fan or romantic things and cuteness most of the time. But at the same time these movies just get to me. Surprisingly this is a good movie. I always end up watching these kinds of movies w/ J.lee and Kelly. But no lie I cried in the end bahaha.



So Jeffrey keeps insisting that he be my Alg2 tutor (x It's so random haha but tis sweet. Now all I need is a Spanish tutor!

-Mr. Solo Dolo

Found

a random Jap boy on youtube! Well my cousin did and was like "Hey Holly wanna see a cute asian?!" I told Saman that I wanted to make cute ass Jap babies HAHAHAHAHA. lawls jk :)

Lost

Cam's shorts -______- I didn't mind them being gone at first. But after he left I was like HOLY SHIT awesome. Good job. Fuck my dick. Piss on my face. Jizz on my life. Wonderful. HAHAHA something alone those lines. I know it's only a pair of shorts, but they were my favorite.

So I think it's funny how things reenact themselves as time goes by. Like how I used to be best friends with Kelly and then we drifted.. but now were like super close again (= But what's even more fucking random is how I'm getting closer to fucking Jeffrey HAHAHA. We didn't talk this much since like 7th grade. Were like complete opposites too.. I love love love love his dog.. and he's annoyed the frick out of it. Guess it just shows how friendships aren't really lost, broken etc. They're just wandering sometimes. Well for me at least.

Saw my best friend Kevin Esguerra today. Miss that stupid Filipino child. Oh yeah Dale calls and convinces me to go BACK to church to help out. So I go back. In 107 degree weather. Random Filipino people asking me how my parents are.. WTF?! hahaha and I guess I have some sort of a rep. now... Some guy in SLYM was like 'Oh I didn't think you'd be into any of this SLYM stuff... cuz I know you hang out with Chony, he's my cousin' HAHA what the fuck. Yeah I guess he goes to our school.. woops didn't know (x Niggas don't know a thang about me these days. I'm up and down. In and out. Black and white. Everything combined.

But right now I'm: Highly content.

-Christianne Holly Vedar Santiago.


Goodnight.


HAHAHAHAHAHAHHHHHAAAAHAAAAAHAAAAAAAA this was stupid but I LAWLED no lie

What

to do on Saturday... Hmmmskies. Kelly and Sam will be at homecoming I believe. J.lee and them are going to Noc.

So I guess that leaves little old Holly by her lonesome to do whatever the fuck she wants :)

Had

me worried sick the entire day -_- My sister texts me in the morning saying she got into a car accident? And she never replies to me wtf! Thank God she's okay though. I don't know what I'd do if her, or my nephews ever got hurt. <3

So I realized, ever since I tried smoking w/ Leon, Kelly, and Jurado, that it's being presented to me quite often haha. Like from Jeffrey and Matt last weekend. Then Jeff H. & Jeff M. kept asking me if I was down this weekend before the football game. Then Last midnight by Jurado.. It's like dayum haha! I usually turn it down though. or take like one hit that usually doesn't do much. Becks was telling me how it's annoying how our boys do it every dayish now. It's whatevs, if they're enjoying themselves, then do what makes you happy :) I supposee

Why

do people have to take their anger out on others? It's not like they deserve to acquire your pissed off mood as well. Idk, It's just something I noticed about our lives today. I mean, who wants pissed off people roaming around our streets on a daily? It's like a chain reaction of pissed off people all the time.

Mama left today, so I guess I'm mamaless for now.

I think it's great how I'm on my period (I asked Justin to take me to Target.. So I could get tampons HAHAHA) and I'm getting sick. This happened EXACTLY ONE MONTH AGO holy tits hahaha :( Oh well. Time to eat Pho every day. Oh what, TOO MUCH INFORMATION haha sorry :)

Today's the first day of Fall! And it's getting colder, so I guess it's almost boyfriend weather ahaha.

Yours Truly,

Christianne.

Time

for a bit of change.
Why not start with a haircut right?
I CHOPPED IT ALL OFF.
Lawls not, I've been known as "The girl with pretty long hair" since 7th grade; the world would chop my balls off.

I guess I need to learn how to discipline myself more too? According to my parents. Guess I could give it a try for once.

Oh and happy birthday babes :) I hope you enjoyed the card I spent till 2 making and the musubi I woke up an hour earlier for. HAHAHAHA<3333 I love you so much.

Sincerely, Holly.

Actually

got kinda pissed yesterday. Not really pissed, but I kept wanting to cry HAHAHAH what the fuck. Either Kelly's rubbing off on me or I'm just PMSing(x I wasn't under the influence of anything either. But I wasn't really mad, like on the inside I was happy still... WTF see can't stay angry for more than 5 seconds -___- I ended up playing bejeweled trying to beat Shawn and reading Alan's book "A Million Little Peices". Which is a hella good book that makes me never want to touch illegal substances again hahaha.

Yesterday made me super thankful that I have the best brother and sister in the world. They're like second parents, like fucking HOMIES that's forsure. Then makes me thankful I have my friends that are like brothers and sisters to me.. Even though J.lee pissed me off yesterday haha.

Got home pretty early yesterday. Aubrey kept calling me asking if I was coming. Said so and so was coming to get me then I was like wtf Frank's coming blablabla but I ended up staying home, and I'm glad I did because I taught a class this morning. So I decided I want my profession to be prior to children, cuz I'm fucking great with them. Haha :)

Kay gonna be random as fuck today and hang out with Jeffrey. What the fuck. Haven't been good friends with him since 7th grade. But him and Justin came over to eat Kogi till 12:30 in the morning the other day. Awesome.

-Miss Holly

"High

school's barely the beginning..."
-Cameron Lew

Something along those lines. But I was telling J.Lee in the car today how out of all the things that Cam says to me that stick to me the most, this gets me through alot.. And it reminds me to live right now to the fullest. So if I'm happy all the time, or not trippin' over the littlest things we all ponder over, blame it on Cam.

I never cry, but today I've been hella close. It's just hitting me that your leaving in about six hours. I remember when we first started talking you said that if you were to leave my life, it'd make no difference whatsoever. But now your leaving, and I feel like balls. Well I'ma keep this short, because I don't want this to be a goodbye type thing. I think I love you too much to lose contact with you... Yeah I "hate that I love you" When I visit the bay lets go to Berkely, it's my favorite place in the world.

"Goodnight babe love you even though we fight for nothing"

-Holly

Stop

wishing things were over. You're just going to make life go by so much faster but at the same time feel so much slower. In a way that'll make you miss everything. In the midst of everything I swear you'll miss something. Don't trip chocolate chip, you'll be fine :)

Thanks Matt for the great morning.

-Holly Flower, Holls, Cough Drops, Lil Lumpia, Baseball, Holl, Dimples, Holls Balls, GrassSmoker, Mom, Peach Pits, etc. etc. etc.

"Things

never work out the way you plan. That's why I don't tell anyone when I wanna talk to a girl or try getting at her..."
-J. Lee

So true. You can make plans but they may end in mishap. You can picture and plan how things are gonna be in the next month or so, but they'll end up being completely different than you imagined. So I realized that the best things happen on ACCIDENT. I always ACCIDENTALLY find the greatest people. Surprises are the best. Like Kelly and Justin coming over today 'till 10 watching A Walk To Remember and crying together. Or like Cam coming over at almost 1 in the morning, and sneaking him through my window just to talk and say bye again before he leaves Friday. Or how I'm webcamming w/ Fluff right now? See random as fuck but it's always best that way :) So let me live my life spontaneously for now. And I'll get through this month as gracefully as I can.

Minor

bumps in the road shouldn't phase anyone. When you let the littlest things engulf your entire life, you completely lose the meaning of alot of things. The more negative you perceive things to be, the worse they get. Guess that's why I'm "good luck" huh? So go ahead, bash me with your shit, you won't even put a dent on me. ^_^

-Holls Balls, GrassSmoker, Sicky Dicky?

And the nicknames just keep coming.

ps. yeah how do I get a hold of you? ahaha.

Only

mad when I'm drunk. I guess it's really true now! Hahaha Alan and Darren etc. are right. Except I wasn't really mad, just everything conjured up in my mind was catching up to me. And yaknow, I needed some Holly time too yadigg. So since idk how to get a hold of you, I'll apologize here. And hopefully you don't see it hella late. I'll probably just end up calling anyways but in case you don't pick up; yeah I'm sincerely sorry. Not saying hi or anything really was immature, and I can only partially blame it on being intoxicated. So on behalf of my concious self, I hope you accept my apology. Cuz I was talking to Fluff as I got home, and explained how as I sobered up I felt more and more bad about it... And idk if you cared but I do so yeah.

-your little girl

"negativity comes in fighting and i try my best to fight it and i know the key to happiness i just dont know how to apply it. i wish that i could buy it. so i could take it home and try it. if only it were a blunt and all i had to do was light it."

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW ^_^

BAHAHAHAHAHHHHHAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHHHHAA
i'm so gay
this is so cute
i love this song
i love it so much i'm prolly gonna get tired of it soon
hahhhhhhhhhha<3333333333333333333

but forreals, it reminds me of Berkeley, because we ate at this dope ass restaurant that hung cassette tapes everywhere :)

HEY

that was rude by the way! You know.









Anyways, I love my cousins :) They bring me back to who I am, to my natural "Jolly Holly" self. Yeah, I've earned that nickname from my friends but I guess you can say it's my cousins who contribute to that too. Thanks guys. Aye remember when we were like AYE LETS BLAZE BEFORE! hahaha that woulda been fun, but I'm kinda glad we went sober :) Actually REALLY glad cuz the food there's way too damn expensive!!! -____- See you in October/ ooVoo :)

-Mom/Hippy/Holls

eating

breakfast w/ jurado. He just ate spam with ranch and hair HAHAHA. soooo fucking tired from Disneyland. weekend with the family was awesome. beat some Thai guy at pong.. then ran off to visit Alex down the street and pissed everyone off cuz I didn't tell anybody. Went to bed at 5.. Went to Disneyland a couple hours later. Thanks guys :)

Hello

goodmornin' :)

That reminds me of Frankie and his flip up sunglasses keheh. Oh yeah he asked me to teach him how to play Uke/Guitar. I felt so honored ^_^ I think I may just be the world's best teacher. Cuz everyone I teach ends up being beast and plays all the time. example: Mark & Cam etc. hahaha. Just kidding I'm not that great.. But I'm excited for that.

Yesterday was fun. After staying up on the phone/webcamming tryna study and stay awake till 1:30 in the morning, I took my 4 tests, had KBBQ for the first time:), Justin & I serenaded Curtis to our songs which kept playing throughout the day, went on a fucking Walmart run! Soooo funny twas cute though hahaha, went to Rusty's and now Justin's girl wants to meet me, half owned at pong? Yeah I knocked a shit load over but idk no one was mad not even justin and we were about to win. They just looked at me and thought it was adorable or something -___- FMD. Went to school to pick up Justin's jacket with him. Was planning on sneaking out w/ him around 1 to go meet up with my cousin and his cousin (who ironically are dating? and are friends with Justin's best friend? fucking small ass world!) but by the time I called we were both to KTFO to get out.

So today's Matt's 18th birthday. I still miss seeing him at school. Seeing all the ex seniors at school, actually. I have no maneyy so I guess I'll just have to be creative today :)

-Lil Lumpia/Peach Pits/Peach Tits now?! <--- Thanks for the new nicknames Frank & Kellito.



"So even if God covets some stress that are piling up to the knee, I won't stop smiling cuz smiling is free"

Thanks

everyone who's been there. For advice, comfort, to eat with, study and webcam with, for reassurance, for good laughs..

Justin showed me this a couple minutes ago. The background music's a bit ironic, but I love this.



-Lil Lumpia aka PeachPits now? Hahaha goodnight.

bye forever.

So bubs visited me last night on his way back from the hospital.. I haven't seen him in like what a little over a month or so? I intended on spending plenty of time with you this summer, but I was busy with my own thing, and well so were you. Yet, somehow you were always there through it all, so thanks. Thanks for staying up late, random visits, saving me from crying,Thai food, etc. Thanks for being a rock for me too, I could always count on you; even saying the littlest things that were slightly sweet made the difference. Thanks for the one of the last things you told me too... "...highschool's nearly the beginning. Not even the beginning even..." So why waste it over thinking shit and stressing over the littlest things right? Yeah, and I remember promising I wouldn't get into trouble; I won't promise it but I swear I'll try :) I promise I won't smoke though, rape me and throw me in the ocean if I ever do, which I won't! Sorry for missing graduation, and your 18th birthday -_- I'll make it up to you one day. College graduation and 21st birthday? I'll be there. Hahaha. But thanks for making me happy I guess. As much as I know I piss you off, I love you and I'll miss you. I don't know why we argue like an old ass married couple. And why I irritate you and why you piss on my balls so much. But that's what made you awesome. Besides the chub that's not even there anymore. If your not too busy having your little webcam dates, squeeze me in! I don't care if I'll always be that little sophomore haha cuz I'm more than that. I'm your HOLLY nigga. So I'll never forget the time when you were like "Yeah, I'ma go, bye forever..." (like 5 minutes later) "Wait never mind I'm bored, Hi" HAHAHAHAHA :) Coolguy. Bye forever though, well hopefully you care to visit a bitch before you leave.. :) I'm debating on whether or not I should let you read this.. HMMMMMMMMMMMM...


Hm well Alan gives super good ass advice. He's the best metro best friend I've ever had haha Kellito agrees.. My dad and I are super chill now. Even though he got mad at me today, I love how shit's going. Shit he closed my window for me today, which has no screen cuz i took it out! But he didn't notice... woah haha.

Hm well look what song I found today, Guess who it reminds me of. Yeah, YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE! i kind of um miss you haha.


Ps. Ateh, I Love You. You write so much. It's hard to keep up with. But I did it. Hahaha. Keep your head up, I hope you know that your life is full, and you don't need those things to fill it. Keep your head up<3