of my spring break and I'd have to admit, everything's going great... Minus some bumps in the road. But I guess you can say I've learned to not let a lot of things bother me. Or seem to bother me.
But when you go with the flow.. and not try to control every little aspect of your life.. you learn to really love what you have, where you are, and who you're with.
That's all I have to say for right now; but I pray to God I make the right decisions. And everything else works out fine. Not necessarily in my favor, but fine.
Thursday, April 7, 2011
Friday, January 21, 2011
The Month of January
I'd have to say it's "The Month of Finally Letting Things Out".
I spent an entire year keeping things in. And even when I'd THINK I've let my feelings out, I haven't even gotten close. But this time I think I hit that point.
Today was the first day I legitimately vented EVERYTHING that was bothering me today to people.
For the first time in a while I heard people say "You look sad.." or "Holly what's wrong..?" Cuz I always have a damn smile on.
But really, I'm happy (: And Matt brought my chilli cheese fries for dinner, heh<3
Btw I feel really mean haha :( Guess it's just part of the whole process..
I spent an entire year keeping things in. And even when I'd THINK I've let my feelings out, I haven't even gotten close. But this time I think I hit that point.
Today was the first day I legitimately vented EVERYTHING that was bothering me today to people.
For the first time in a while I heard people say "You look sad.." or "Holly what's wrong..?" Cuz I always have a damn smile on.
But really, I'm happy (: And Matt brought my chilli cheese fries for dinner, heh<3
Btw I feel really mean haha :( Guess it's just part of the whole process..
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Thanks,
for everyone's prayers. Because through these rough times my family and I really need them.
It's January now and the first two weeks I've found myself to be extremely busy and distracted. I'm balancing school, church, rehearsals, friends, and family (but multiply it by like ten), all at the same time.
But through all of this, I've managed to be real happy for some reason.
I think it's something I've picked up from my uncle over the years. He always had a smile on his face, a joke to tell, a bright side to look at...
So to my Ninong, I'd like to say thank you so much for everything. I wish I'd talked to you more and spent more time with you this past year.. But I'm glad I've gotten to see you before that. Out of all my relatives you were the one to take care of me, pick me up, and drop me off the most. I can't thank you enough and I can't express my love you to in any way right now except in faith that some how up there you can read my blog bahah.. I cried at the hospital when I saw you, and I'm crying now as I write this. I always avoid saddness, but I can't help but to be sad right now. I promise I'll teach JR everything you've taught me. I pray every day that my heart could be as kind as yours, because yours was so sincere. I'm so blessed to have you in my life and to have spent my childhood and youth with you. You'll forever be in my heart.. and maybe soon I'll accept that fact that you're gone. Because I still pretend that you're simply just at home, watching some Filipino channel like any normal day. (ps. sorry for slamming the door on your hand that one time.. I still feel real bad...)
This past December & January I've learned the importance of FAMILY. And I can't complain that I didn't get to go to Tao, or some amazing New Years party because I spent mine how it should be spent; With my family who's always been there and will always be there.
Other than everything that's going on. I like the simplicity of my life.. how I don't have to contemplate about anything right now. Thank the Lord for it.
It's January now and the first two weeks I've found myself to be extremely busy and distracted. I'm balancing school, church, rehearsals, friends, and family (but multiply it by like ten), all at the same time.
But through all of this, I've managed to be real happy for some reason.
I think it's something I've picked up from my uncle over the years. He always had a smile on his face, a joke to tell, a bright side to look at...
So to my Ninong, I'd like to say thank you so much for everything. I wish I'd talked to you more and spent more time with you this past year.. But I'm glad I've gotten to see you before that. Out of all my relatives you were the one to take care of me, pick me up, and drop me off the most. I can't thank you enough and I can't express my love you to in any way right now except in faith that some how up there you can read my blog bahah.. I cried at the hospital when I saw you, and I'm crying now as I write this. I always avoid saddness, but I can't help but to be sad right now. I promise I'll teach JR everything you've taught me. I pray every day that my heart could be as kind as yours, because yours was so sincere. I'm so blessed to have you in my life and to have spent my childhood and youth with you. You'll forever be in my heart.. and maybe soon I'll accept that fact that you're gone. Because I still pretend that you're simply just at home, watching some Filipino channel like any normal day. (ps. sorry for slamming the door on your hand that one time.. I still feel real bad...)
This past December & January I've learned the importance of FAMILY. And I can't complain that I didn't get to go to Tao, or some amazing New Years party because I spent mine how it should be spent; With my family who's always been there and will always be there.
Other than everything that's going on. I like the simplicity of my life.. how I don't have to contemplate about anything right now. Thank the Lord for it.
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