Haven't

gone to church content in a while. I didn't feel all shitty from going out the night before, and I pheel all rested (= Yeah sorry for snoring so loud btw... Nah I'm not sorry haha, cuz you snore loud too.

So, I guess you can say I'm in a fickle state of mind. I'm happy, I'm not happy. So weird, I didn't even think Ivan noticed me at church today but he did. And he texted me saying I looked sad. Haha I guess it's apparent when I don't think anyone's watching... He's so sweet though, said it was OK cuz he'd treat me out for yogurt soon hahaha yay.

But I guess overall I'm happy most of the time. I really can't stay angry or anything for very long -__-

Oh, Alex and I are phrands now ^_^ I guess it comes with the territory of being me, cuz shit always has to work out nicely haha. It was kinda cute too. Repairing lost friendships and shit are the greatest. I took his pack of stoggies, and I really don't feel bad about it because it's something I should of tried doing while we were still dating and it probably would of worked. OH WELL never too late! Haha I'm awesome.. But I guess I learned you can't really give up on something great. Like great friendships. A lot of people I were really close to before I don't feel as close to now... and it's making me feel a bit off. Oh well, can't feel on top all the time.

OH AND HI ATEH, I'M REALLY GLAD YOU MADE ONE CUZ NOW WE CAN KEEP UP WITH EACH OTHER'S LIVES ^_^ KEHEHEHE

Just realized

I'm kind of scared for when my mom get's back. My dad and I are chill now, but I'm not too sure about my mom and I.. I'm never on good terms with both of them at the same exact time. We'll see then. I'm sure it'll be phineee though (=

Yeah but anyways, my cousin JR is fucking weird. HAHAHA. Not being a bitch or anything cuz I know I'm weird as fuck too, I'm told on a daily. But 1. He rolls his eyes and goes "ugh" like he's the shit. (maybe it's cuz he is the shit) 2. When he first met Stinky, all he did was stare him down and totally reject him HAHAHA 3. Now I'm at his house watching him make the THIRD video of himself in half an hour.. like he films himself doing shit pretending he's a newscaster and he's in the Hollywood Tower of Terror... Ask my boyfriend, he's the most interesting person to watch/ make fun of hahaha my brothers girlfriend, my boyfriend, and I made him cry HAHAHAHA.

AND THIS SONG JUST MAKES ME SO HAPPY ^_^ and so does Joseph Vincent.. So whabbamm orgasm for my heart right here<333

Yeah,

school's a fucking trip. Hahahaha I miss summer alot, but it had to end some time. That way when it comes back around I'll appreciate it 10 times more (=

OH SO GOT IN BIG ASS TROUBLE on Monday. HAHAHAHA. So I decided to throw a little KB and I thought everything would be cool after. NOPE. Didn't think people would throw their empty things of weed in my trash can, and like 5 big ass Bud Ice's either! And leave the beer in he fridge and freezer HAHAHAH which is entirely my fault actually cuz I should of checked. But anyways... I got into a shitload of trouble.. I've been staying at my Aunts after school every day...

But she's amazing. I swear she's so relatable to and she understands me completely.. she talked my dad into softening up. And after crying my eyes out my daddy and I squashed beef last night. And I think he trusts me. So now I think he's going to talk to my mom about not grounding me (= Yeah, everyone who said it was going to be alright, was right. Kehehe.

Well I got sick.. so I guess that's a bit of my karma there for you.

I wish my schedule was like last year, I miss walking everywhere with Sam.

I'll get used to this new routine though, it's pretty dope. Wake up in the morning a bit later than usual. Wait for Jurado to get here. Jurado irons his shirt. We eat cereal. He sleeps in my bed while I take the couch -__- and we listen to She & Him songs about 'riding alone on bicycles for two' ahahaha. And we eat cereal and Activia!!! THEN we go to my locker. Then to our 2nd periods which are right next to eachother. Then I meet him after and find my boyfriend<3 we go with Kellito to our 3rd period. I meet Becky after. We go to my locker and go to Mustang Update. LUNCH!... ETC. idk why I typed all of this out right now HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA OH, and I guess Tuesdays Ale and I have lunch dates (=

Whaddup Tho (=

I'd have to say I spent my last summer day and night here pretty well.
The beach was sort of a fail, but the hookah sesh in the car and talking with my boyfriend was great.
Fucked shit up at Frankies later tho (= Killed at BP. Ralph's friends are too scared to play me hahaha. Pigged out a shitload there. Took a nap w/ Mr. Fancy Pants instead of Stew, Cleaned the shit outta his kitchen and cut my finger off broken glass while i was doing it! Tried climbing the roof but ended up falling -__-

But great as way to end my summer.

I'd have to say this is the best summer I've had so far. I'm sad it's ending, but at the same time Frank reminded me that shiet.. WE GOT THEM WEEKENDS! Aye I'ma try really hard my junior year though.. If you see me slacking off and being a ritard, please slap me.

Thanks for the amazing summer. The tears, laughs, drunk texts, sober texts, late night phone calls, jam sesh's, failed covers, sushi, chill ass nights, BOMB ASS NIGHTS etc.




AND ISN'T HE ADORABLE?! his name's Luke Skywalker I want him<3

stuck

in my head.



ps. everything worked out wonderfully (=

My heart

just fucking broke

-____________-

AND NO KELLY'S CRYING TOO!




fuck that just killed me.

WINNER

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA

I live for awkward moments. And I think today was the most awkwardest moment I've ever experienced ^_^

Well off to the beach house in a bit (=

I'M SO SURPRISED HE WAS OKAY WITH IT.

Hahahahahahahahahahahahhhahhahhhahaaaa

Yeah, I'm happy.

-Lil' Lumpia

AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH

mazing ^_^

This turned me on times a thousand hahaha, I really don't know why.

ps. Kevin, if you ever see this, which you probably won't because you're in the Philippines; This reminds me of you (=

Quality

time.

I guess that's all anyone can ask for. Quality time with the people you love, and you'll be happy.

Whether it's Disneyland w/ your 11 year old nephew three days in a row, or cuddling under a tree 'till 2 in the morning ^_^

I'm glad I went to Disneyland today. With my amazing powers I got my mom to let me stay home, but something was bugging me; telling me the right thing would be to spend another day with Johann. And I'm really proud I did. I love him to death.

I haven't been the same w/o my babes. I miss her so much )= and we were talking today about how were not the same w/o eachother. I'm glad I have Johann here though, he's fucking hilarious (=
(YEAH AND BY THE WAY I DID NOT HAVE ZERO POINTS ON THAT PICTURE -___-)




And my Bee ended up calling me while I was playing Mario Kart with Johann.. I felt like my heart just got broken and it didn't even happen to me..
I guess when you really give your heart to someone you're giving them the opportunity to really devour everything you have inside you, depending on how much you let them in. But that's life right, a big bowl of risks and what would life be without terrible obstacles.

I love you<3

Sincerely,

Lil' Lumpia

So high

I started thinking super hard. Hahaha fuck... Idk anymore dawggggsss..

WARPED TOUR was amazing. Thank you Bryant for another bomb ass day.

I made him watch Never Shout Never with me ^_^
and he ended up making out with some chick!
I'M FUCKING GREAT ASS LUCK I swear bahaha.


My babes and I had a talk about how we've felt like we are going to drift when she comes back... We were thinking about it at the same exact fucking time when she mentioned it. But to be honest, I don't know what the titties I'd do without her.
"My other half, My right kidney, and My right ballsack" <3

YOUNG LUMPIA- out.

My last days in SF

were pretty amazing I'd have to say. And now I immensely miss my 2nd hometown.

It was a bittersweet feeling being there. Like when I pig out on junk food. So fucking good, but I feel terrible after -_- Yeah, I'm gay hahaha. I didn't realize how wanted I am. I know that sounds somewhat cocky but really haha. I'm just so glad I'm surrounded by so many sweet, and nice people in my life.

I AM BLESSED. That's all I gotta say. ^_^


I got to wittness a little peice of heartbreak on my last full day there. I guess you can say guys are pretty much ASSHOLES. My last full day there was kind of a downer. It started with my mom and I getting into a fight, after really trying to mend things back together with her. Then the asshole-fucking happened. Pretty much he pulled the whole "I was drunk, I don't remember anything" shit on her. Which is complete bullshit. My sister out of all people really doesn't deserve that. She's a strong, independent mother who has the most beautiful faith in God I've ever seen.. She really is an inspiration to me, I don't know what I'd do without her guiding me.

So it's like what the fuck, the Summer's coming to an end already?

But when I think about it, I'm going to be saying the same things when school's over. I'll be going over all the good ass memories, and all the things I've gone through and learned..

Oh, I texted him yesterday. Was fucking RANDOM. But for some reason, I couldn't be serious. I know I was supposed to be apologizing, but I just had to be myself. Cuz that's all I ever was with him. He doesn't want to talk or see me at all. But the fact that I got that off my chest, made me feel so much lighter.

KAY, NOW I'M READY TO TAKE ON THAT MOFUCKING WORLD >:) lawls.

Day 8 in SF.

I know it's the next day already, but being here gave me OCD for blogging about my day. Haha. How gay am I?

Overall, today was a good. Ass. Day.

I ended up spending the entire day with my sister. She's about 17 years older than me, but she's really my best friend. I got to be drunk in front of her today.. peculiar.. I tell her about everything on my mind, and she tells me everything on hers. It's like were in sync, all we can do is help regulate eachother's minds so they're at peace.

But she took me to get Chili's, got pedicures, & waxed our beastly eyebrows. Wonderful bonding time.

And I met the guy she likes. He was drunk too. Like DDDDDAAA-RUNK. Hahaha. It was pretty chill though. I mean I cock-blocked like no other LIKE USUAL. LIKE I ALWAYS END UP DOING. I MEAN THIS IS THE SECOND TIME THIS SUMMER I'VE BEEN IN THE SAME ROOM/ PREMISES OF TWO PEOPLE MAKINT OUT RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME. HAHAHA -___- I ended up having to piss and calling my boyfriend about it. Aw, it was absolutely wonderful hearing her voice ^_^

(Adding this on cuz my sister told me to.. WE WALK INTO THE THEATAER AND THERE THERE TWO PEOPLE LIKE HARDCORE MAKING OUT AHAHA THEY'RE ALL ON TOP OF EACHOTHER AND SHIT.. I'm like the ultimate cock block<3)

Oops back to my thingy, ADD MUCH? Fuck I can't even focus on what I'm talkin about...

It's almost 4:00.. Haha gotta text Drew soon..

ANYWAYS, holy fuck me -____- what am I talking about.. hahaha oh yeah. He's really nice. He's Tongan. It's like Samoan but TEN TIMES BETTER! Oh my.. Hahaha. He has this cool ass accent. It's adorable ^_^ He's really down to earth too..

I met alot of really down to earth people this Summer.. or got alot closer to people. Honestly every day's just another learning experience. I'm taking a step each day. But with every step I take into consideration what I may be learning and what I can take out of it.

I'll cut this short now. I hope no one reads this. Because this sounds like complete fucktard out of my asshole.. HAHAHA.

OMA ATU (=
It means, I Love You, in Tongan.

Goodnight.

Finally getting to read..

Sister and Booger Nephews.

My beautiful and my new Tongan friend!

Day 7 in SF.

It's Friday now, and I'll be missing out once again on all my Walnut babies' wonderful adventures.

Surprisingly, I'm okay with that. I miss everyone dearly, but I realized that I'm loved over here also. It's nice knowing that you can go somewhere almost 7 hours away, and still receive that heartwarming, unconditional love that you get back home.

I can say forsure that I've made the most of my stay here so far. I didn't let myself pout and argue like I did last time. I learned that looking at the brighter side of shit always makes the world a little brighter. As an adolescent, I just have to make the most of what I have.

I went shopping for fucking FIVE HOURS today hahaha. And spent like $205 -_- I hate American Apparel, but I had to get that stupid hoodie. I hate Urban, and Forever 21 hahaha. Thank you Grandma and Grumps for the money ^_^

Got to spend some quality time with my sister today. She let me finish watching Kickass (GOOD ASS MOVIE! AHAHAHA), and picked me up to go to church with her. For some reason when I go to church with my sister I can't take anything seriously. The entire time I ended up trying to speak Spanish and talking about how cool the preists accents were. After mass I met the guy she liked ^_^ He's so nice.. And of course my sister deserves the best of the best. She made me sing and harmonize with her in front of him. He didn't beleive we were sisters, because we honestly don't look alike. At all. MMM THEN WE HAD YUMMY AS SUSHI AND MOCHI!! Gahd I'm being rushed again. Thats probably why this sounds like complete nonsense... Hahaha KAY BYE BOOGERS.

Day 6 in SF.

If you've spent time with me, or spent time just talking to me, you find out that I am one of the most fickle, indecisive people you will ever meet. I want one thing, then I want the other. I don't have one thing, I want it. Thats why I love being up and about, it distracts me from all the contemplative shit that goes on in my mind..

My uncle took my cousin and I to go look at colleges today. Colleges that I probably won't get into, but then again there's no harm in trying (= SFstate's actually pretty nice, I've wanted to go live in San Francisco my entire life. I've had my life set on moving out here for some odd reason. It doesn't make sense because 1. Where exactly will I live? 2. The weather kills me. 3. I ALWAYS get sick out here, or anywhere in general -_- and 4. It's getting more expensive and congested every day. Then we visited this Catholic school I didn't care for, San Fran University? And we headed to Berkley. Oh my FUCK it's beautiful there. The people dress cutely. They hold wonderful protests and what not. What more can I ask for? My sister told me not to go, that it'd only get my hopes up and what not. But getting your hopes up isn't so bad.. I mean you have to get beat down to appreciate all the wonderful, and unexpected things that happen to you right? KAY and the city of Berkley. Holy jizz. I think I fell in love because they have all these hippy stands and cultural stores everywhere. AND A SANDWICH PLACE THAT HANGS CASSETTE TAPES EVERYWHERE. hahaha.

I'm sorry for missing your birthday today, bubs. You're confusing. You're mad at me for missing your birthday, then your not. You're exactly like me I don't know when your just fucking around or not -___- hahaha. I actually do feel bad. I really don't know why. It's not like were really that close as we were anymore. But I still love and care about you. I hope you have a great ass 18th. Shit eighteen.. haha, and you're only 18 once.

Day 5 in SF.

As much as I hate being MIA from everything, my bubs reminded me that I have two more years of high school left. Taking 10 days off of what I'll be doing all school year isn't bad at all. (=
Today my gay uncle, I think he's gay, took us to this authentic Thai restaurant. Reminded me of the first time my bubs and I hung out.. Why do I keep mentioning my bubs -__- hahaha. Anyways, twas pretty good. Johann and I found gift shops and what not. Weird ass things in there.. hahaha and then there were some black people outside of the jewelry store and I got scared for some reason.. hahaha. Every time the wind blew I'd get a whiff of weed.. haha good ol' San Fran (=
We went to my uncle's pad after. It's fucking tight. He's a hipppy. That's how I wanna live when I'm old. Kay well I was gonna write more but uhh... THEY'RE RUSHING ME K BYE hahahahaha

Day 4 in SF.

Went biking today at San Mateo. The weather was a fucking PERFECT 70. Holy jizz.. I thought it was cute cuz Mateo reminded me of Matthew = Matt D. (= Who's been extra mean to me lately but admitted he missed me, and said that no one could possibly be as cute and babyish as i am. Just cuz I was playing Halo with my cousins and I finally let my nephew have a turn.

But the biking was intense. The weather was wonderful the problem was I decided to wear jeans and a friggin flannel ahaha. 6 miles and the last mile was this intense ass hill. But it was all worth it, cuz going down the hill after makes you feel like your flying. One of the best feelings in the world..

So me and my bubs had this intense ass conversation today. Pretty much admitted alot of shit that should of been said like the BEGINNING of the summer -_- And it pretty much mindfucked me hahaha but the only person who knows is my boyfriend.. (Who by the way did the meanest thing to me today! I hate you haha...) But anyways, I'm gonna miss arguing with you. I hate arguing with people, but arguing and fighting with you is just so great. I'm thinking it's too late, I'm told it's not too late. WHAT THE TITTIES?! Can't I just be at peace with my mind while I'm on vacation?

Nope, I remember like one Summer I went to Hawaii, after 7th grade. And my ex-boyfriend kept asking for me back HAHAHAHA. I was like WHAT THE FUCK LEAVE ME ALONE -____________- hahahaha it's funny now that I look back on it(x

Day 3 in SF.

I CAN'T BELIEVE IT'S ONLY MONDAY )=
as I've been saying all day... I'll come home in about a week, but by the time I come back, my babes is gone for the south. We've been inseparable all summer, up until now. I miss my boyfriend/babes, my kidney, my badass, my bubs, my panda...

Today we walked my cousins' dog Bailey, and I played tennis. I'm not as bad as I thought I was ^_^
We watched Freedom Writers (GOOD ASS MOVIE) and they rented Alice in Wonderland for me, which i remember was supposed to watch high with my boogerfaces a long ass time ago haha..

Day 2 in SF.

I love the world. Not to be overly optimistic or anything. I just think it's cool how you NEVER run out of things to do or try. Or wonderful people to be with. I tried one of those two seater bikes today; it's been on my summer to-do list since last summer. (=

I could honestly picture myself living up here in the Bay. People are so friendly, some random guy kept saying "Hi, nice to see you" to me. Hahaha. I wish Walnut had a Goldengate Park.